| ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lately I just pee on a lot of sticks I am pretty sure no one reads this anymore (that's OK, I say this relieved almost, not in a self-pitying way) so I won't worry about saying too much. At work today I found out that a co-worker who went on maternity leave before Christmas had her baby on Friday--and the baby was stillborn. Just a day before the baby had a heartbeat. And then, nothing. I am heartbroken for her. There are no words. Of course it makes me think about our own efforts. Been undergoing a series of tests. My fallopian tubes seem to be just fine, thank you very much. A word of advice: Avoid this test like the devil if you can. Hurts like hell and the cramping lasts for more than a day. In 2 weeks I go in for an exam and then we discuss options--the pill that makes you ovulate more vs. IVF. Found out my insurance covers half of IVF costs which is great but it is still scarily expensive and the success rate is, well, not exactly amazing. I keep hoping nature will, you know, do its thing and take care of things. C's undergoing tests, too. Seems he has a viral infection that could be impacting fertility. In some ways it feels like our life's been reduced to a series of pregnancy tests and fertility tests. Lately I just pee on a lot of sticks. That's what I get right? Waiting this long. Don't think I don't think it all the time. 9:12 pm - 07.01.13
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