----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i could die from never letting go.... Last night I dreamt about a house situated above a freeway. As I walked past the house I looked beyond it to the freeway down below and thought � no, I can�t do this. Do what? And then I noted the sky � a solid wall of pearl gray. Perfectly gray, I though to myself. Even the one section that seemed more charcoal than pearly blended seamlessly � appearing like gradations in a rainbow. I�m not sure of the significance of this dream but all throughout day I find myself returning to this image of a solid gray sky. And I keep thinking about Sept. 11 and its one year anniversary next Wednesday. Sunday, as I skimmed through the New York Times and various articles on the subject of 9-11, I found myself crying again. Something I thought I was over � done with. Not so. I asked GB if he�d thought about the anniversary at all. I told him that although I wasn�t sure what I wanted to do to commemorate it, I knew something had to be done. He agreed and we talked about it for a while. Should we be by ourselves? Should we be with friends? After all it was our friends who made that day so bearable � going to dinner with Angel Boy and then to Caf� to watch the news on their big screen TV � being around those people who are like family. I�m not entirely sure what is the right thing. I don�t want to take part of some larger memorial and of course �real life� always interferes with the best of intentions � I have homework and class the next day after all. But to let it pass without some sort of planned acknowledgement � however quiet, however small � seems very wrong. Maybe Angel Boy will be back from the Japanese tour by then and we can spend it with him. Maybe we�ll drive out to the airport and take those pictures of the planes we keep talking about. Or maybe we�ll just turn off the TV and listen to the quiet for a while. Am I just making too much of this? What about the rest of you? What will you do? If anything? 2:40 pm - 09.04.02
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