----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i just don't know what to do with myself I really do not understand my family. My grandmother has begged me for months to come out and visit her in Texas. GB and I finally coordinate the time off and I call to tell her. She seems happy but says she has to check with my aunt because that may be the weekend they're in SoCal. Now I've just gotten an e-mail from my aunt asking us not to come.
I can't really argue or protest ... my aunt's husband died last August after a long struggle with lung cancer. I know things must be hard. I just feel sad, extremely disappointed and more than a little hurt. Am I selfish? Yes, probably. I just don't know what else to feel. I'm trying very hard to fit compassion and empathy in there but it's hard when you feel as if you have virtually no contact with an entire side of your famly - and not for a lack of trying. OK, I'm going to quit feeling sorry for myself now. There's nothing I can do about it, 1500 miles away. 8:02 pm - 02.16.05
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