| ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- capturing moods.... Ouch. I just burned myself. I'm making black bean soup and cornbread and as I reached in the oven to pull out the cornbread I singed myself something awful... But that's OK, because it takes my mind off my other feelings for the moment. Feelings of sadness and depression that I can't quite put a finger on....feelings that have been brewing since yesterday morning when I realized I had no energy to change from my pajamas into regular clothes. So I didn't. I lounged around the house all day and took a long nap and then got up, ordered pizza and watched a movie with GB. All lovely, normal stuff....and yet, I feel both heavy and restless and uncertain and gloomy. Maybe it is that I am nearly halfway through my vacation and I feel like there's so much stuff I need to get done - and all I want to do is rest. Maybe part of it comes from B.'s funeral this morning - but really that felt more like a celebration of life than a mournful remembrance.... Maybe it is just hormones.... Maybe it is just a post-everything, pre-New Year affliction...most likely... hopefully it will pass soon... 6:18 pm - 12.27.02
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