| ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- a faith in something I can't see I think the medication is working. I feel lighter. I feel more...well...optimistic. And that's what scared me the most these last few months--the realization that I'd lost the one thing that's always kept me going in the past: Optimism. A faith that things will get better. I lost that. Slowly, I feel it creeping back into my veins. I have no clue how things will get better. Or win. Or really, if they will at all. But right now I'm choosing to believe that they will. C. says he believes that, too. Meanwhile, everything still scares the shit out of me right now: Finances, health things, life in general. I just learned today that an old co-worker from the Big Corporation has died. Cancer. He was 49 and just this incredibly nice person. We used to talk indie rock all the time. He was also incredibly talented. A Pulitzer Prize-nominee. But again, just so nice. It broke my heart today. And yet...I'm still holding on to faith. PS: It's an imperfect film, but I really liked Young Adult. I think it just hit just the right chord at just the right time in my life. Curious to see what you thought. 3:33 pm - 30.03.12
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