| ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- oh me oh my, i wanna do right, but not right now.. the feeling is back, full on...thanks, in part to a dream I had last night. Stupid, not very complex dream and yet here I am with this heavy feeling in my chest. The soft, sad Gi11ian We1ch record playing on the headset and the cold gray morning has not helped to lighten the mood. The book group last night was OK - they're mostly K's friends and even though I've been in this group for years now, it's sometimes a weird thing (too weird to explain here - it's just that K sort of moves in 2 different worlds: one that is young and rock'n'roll and one that is older and monied; the book group is more of the older/monied group). I always feel a bit on the perimeter when I'm there. Sometimes this is OK, sometimes I just like to observe people. And sometimes I just really wish that it was just K & me gabbing into the night (as we did end up doing in the kitchen for quite a while) or, when I'm feeling particularly sour, just me at home, curled up in bed with a book.. Maybe I am only tired...maybe I only need a good night of sleep. A simple, brick-heavy night of all-consuming sleep. That sounds so good right now. Either that or running away from home. But I keep forgetting that I'm too old for that kind of thing now...or at least that's what they tell me... 11:23 am - 06.12.03
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