----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- people are people so why should it be? It's barely 10 a.m. and already this week is getting the best of me in the worst of ways. The weekend was spent trying to shop for furniture for the new house. We did find a really cool 1950s dining room set that I think we're going to buy but other that that, nothing. A trip to the monthly giant ant1que fair netted a few vintage '50s-era cookbooks ("Wi11ing Water: Recipes with Water" mmmm....hmmmmm?) and other random tchotchkes, but nothing major. Thrifting brought in some old M*rtha Stewart and S*nset mags, primarily purchased for their gardening info. There were other things this weekend, but nothing major. A show here, a meal there, a few moments of quiet, but not nearly enough. There are never enough of those moments. Tonight is a work-related book group. This group of women who work in a related department keep asking me to join and I've finally committed to going. Why do these things terrify me so? Where does the anxiety come from? It's 9 hours away and I'm already experiencing a tinge of panic. I don't know any of them very well at all and will probably force myself to rely on a few glasses of wine as a way to loosen up, to relax and not feel so terrified. When does a social phobia cross over into a full-blown disorder? At what point do I lock myself up in the house, afraid to come out for anyone? I know I'm being overly dramatic. It's just anxiety. It usually goes away once I arrive at my destination and relax, realizing that people are just, you know, people...It's just the getting there that's so hard. . 10:52 am - 06.13.05
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