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self-pity won't help you now (pt. 2)

Itís just past 3 p.m. and I just feel like such a wreck today. Iíve met all my deadlines and now I have the next two-or-so-hours toÖto what? I have a list a mile long but with no immediate deadline looming ahead of me I just donít know where to start. My entire body hurts. I think itís PMS Ė only it seems to soon for that Ė nevertheless, thatís what it feels like.

And Iím freezing cold. And craving something sweet but telling myself no because my entire body seems to be existing in places that it shouldnít.

I think part of my grumpiness has something to do with the fact that itís finally feeling like fall around here and other than getting to wear flannel pajamas to bed I havenít been able to do much to celebrate the arrival of my favorite season. Thereís been no ritual making of hearty soups and to and organization of sweaters and coats. No time to think about Thanksgiving or to feel happy about the upcoming holiday season.

Instead I just plow through from day to day, trying to keep my head above water and basically just barely getting by. I canít seem to catch my breath. Every time I think that maybe Iím caught up Iím reminded about some new (or old) obligation. Or, I look at my calendar and realize that even if I have a second to breathe right now that second will truly only last a second because, just around the corner, I JUST WANT A BREAK ALREADY.

Sorry. OKÖ.deep breath

Iím better Ė or at least I would be if people around here werenít so freaking rude and

DIDNíT STAND BEHIND MY DESK TALKING LOUDLY

AHEM.

PEOPLE.

I really really really really hate people sometimes.

Thatís right Iím a bonafide stick-in-the-mud, PMS-afflicted, old-before-her-time sourpuss.

So what else is new?

3:54 pm - 11.05.02

sounds: mix CD someone made me
words:
i am: ready to scream

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