----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- nothing is happening, it's all confusion I'm going crazy. I bought a pregnancy test but, honestly with everything that's been happening in the last month I can't even remember the date of my last period. I'm useless, the pregnancy test is useless--all this worry and wonder is useless...until. Until enough time goes by to convince me that things here are different now. Yesterday I ordered a half-caf/half-decaf at the coffee shop. Just in case. My coffee habit is so strong I'd have to wean myself down to the recommended 100 milligrams slowly. On Friday--just in case, everything is now just in case--I tried going cold turkey and that, my friends, was awful. I finally succumbed to a Diet Coke and then, in the afternoon, a nap. Yesterday as I sipped my coffee--of which I only drank half anyway once I was convinced the caffeine-deprived headache was no longer lurking--I prayed: Please let me be pregnant. Please. The 2 a.m. almost-morning sickness, however, is gone. The all-consuming fatigue, too. There is still a general feel of queasiness but that could just be my imagination working overtime. I am probably not in a family way but this close proximity to the possibility makes me realize just how much I really do want it. 12:44 pm - 17.10.10
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