----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- gazing off at a ship that's sailed Just went down the D-land archive rabbit hole. Ten years ago I was just all aflutter worrying about whether or not we should have kids. Seriously, every other post is "am I pregnant?" "do I want kids?" "no, I'm not pregnant--boo/whew!" It's so strange to look back at that time. Here we are now, that ship has sailed. I still look to be within childbearing years, however, (and technically I suppose I am) so I still get questions about it from time to time. Mostly I brush them off. But it's still a question I have: How do people know they want children? It seems like such a certain thing for most people (certain they do or certain they don't) yet I always wavered. I suppose it's for the best it didn't happen then. And, honestly, I'm positive I would have been a lousy mother. I'm impatient, selfish, self-centered. None of this, I hope you know, is commentary on your recent post. From here it looks like you're doing fine--even though you may feel different. You care, deeply, and you think about it and you worry and you love and really, isn't that half the battle? 8:45 pm - 15.07.18
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