| ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the soft hissing of summer lawns And the week starts with a few sparklers � the soft hissing of summer lawns sizzling in the summer heat (yes I stole that line from Joni Mitchell) before they light into firecrackers � Yesterday at JP�s we were standing inside his hot and muggy and unbearable living room when a neighbor came running up his steps, shouting. Seems JP�s tree was sparking into flames where the branches intersected with the power lines. We stood there, jaws dropped, watching as a leaf caught fire and dropped to the ground, lighting the grass into a small bonfire. JP smashed out the blaze with his foot then ran upstairs to call the fire department. They came out in all blazes, sirens screaming and lights flashing�a lot of hype for a few flames�After surveying the scene, they decided to call in the electric company�I had to go home so I left JP discussing the logistics of using your home as kindling with the firemen �. Too much to do this week. Too much work work work. And damn I love holidays as much as the next girl but when they come mid-week they can really fuck you up � especially when you have to go out of town. Yeah, so we�re going to Vegas on the 4th�and this is no �vegas, baby, vegas� kind of trip. No, GB�s sister is marrying her loser boyfriend at the Treasure something-or-other casino. Never mind that three months ago, to the best of my knowledge, they were still split up � late May we get an invitation to the wedding�came as a bit of shock�.but then again, why should it have? They�re that type of couple�always splitting up and getting back together. I hope they don�t continue doing that once they�re married. And never mind that this guy is just such a loser�I still can�t get it out of my mind how he made Thanksgiving hell for all of us�well, I wish them the best, really�if not for their sake, then for the kids�our niece and nephew�that�s what really counts here� Therapy today. I need it really. Though I�m dreading it. I need to sort through this mishmash of emotion that�s been stewing for the last week or so. Can�t figure them out myself. Only know that it feels like there is a knot tightening in my chest. And just when I thought I was doing better�it�s as if I�ve taken a few steps backwards� OK, I must work now�more later�hopefully less whiny�once again, I�m beginning to bore myself �. 10:54 a.m. - 2001-07-02
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