This is about as social as I get now ...

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catch a tiger by its tail...

things i thought you should know:

I have an irrational fear of losing my husband in a car accident. I freak out when he is late getting home. I mentally imagine scenarios where the police call to tell me what has happened. These scenarios make me hyperventilate. When he finally does get home I release my anxiety by getting mad at him for not calling to let me know why he was 7.5 minutes late. Really

I have an irrational fear of driving next to huge semi trunks. I tend to hold my breath until I�ve passed them.

I have an irrational fear of the dark when I am alone. If I am home alone I must sleep with a night light. Otherwise � and sometimes in spite of this � I will have numerous nightmares.

I have an irrational fear of having conversations with people I don�t know or barely know. I go out of my way to avoid them. People probably think I�m stuck up. In truth I am petrified. Doesn�t always bode well for me in my line of work�.

I have an irrational fear that everyone hates me. For every moment that I don't care whether or not this true - I care twice as much for twice as many moments (you may notice this by the way I whine when nobody signs my guestbook or if someone doesn't reply to an e-mail or return a phone call. It has to be personal. It has to be about ME. This is stupid and self-centered, I know....that's why it's irrational.)

5:01 pm - 11.15.02

sounds: Future Pilot AKA
words:
i am: it seems, often afraid

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