| ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- a slow wave of loss I know dream entries are tedious but it's my journal and I'll be boring if I want to. Last night's dream had so much to unpack. I was still married to D. but in a relationship with C. I was my current age and my mother was still alive, living in a two-bedroom apartment that looked like the one that D. and I were sharing when we split up. I'd just found out I was pregnant (at this age!) and wasn't sure what I was going to do, other than keep it. I wasn't living with D. or C. at the time so I talked to my mother about moving in with her for a few months to save money--much in the same way I did when D. and I split up. I was excited to be pregnant but also scared. I wondered about my relationships. I was glad my mother was there. When I awoke, with a start, I just felt such sadness, a slow wave of loss. 11:38 am - 12.08.19
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